guzaarish....

what is this???? a movie???

like honestly... i know ppl will watch movies without any storyline... but this i truly dont get... what was the pt of this anyway???

everyones commendin hrithiks performance.... but exactly which part are they talkin abt??

hes paralysed for heavens sake!!!

cant move any part o his body... are they talkin abt him acting as dead weight?? then yes ofcourse a commendable job that...

the frames are beautiful the onli thin that held my attention all tru d movie was the frame detailin and the shots.....

but now the details what exactly is the time period this movie is set in?? like suddenly the only things there are owns like period pieces and then i see women walkin around in other clothes... or are the owns a part of the whole ordeal everyone had to go throuh to cover up aishwarya rai's gain of more than her fair share of fat??

overall a very average movie that has been overhyped. give it a pass if you can.

a day for the children...

nehru's birth day and a day edicated to children... a beautiful day... dawning bright... with sunshine... a smile on my face... walked down my road... and tot back on all the children's day i have been at my school for... al d candies tht have been gotten... and all the classes cut fr d programmes...and then, a child walks by carryin his younger brother on his hip...

flea bitten bag... lice infested hair... a bowl in hand.. begging for a morsel of food.... walked on toward the beach to find twelve yr old children carryin construction work helmets and headin to work... my smile fades,my steps stallling, my childhood candy filled memories forgotten, a new realisation dawns, a resolution made.... i will make a difference in the lives of as many children as possible... one way or another...

d day:)

this yr... has been reat... and the d day had finally come... actually the day before my birth day was amazin.... had a lot of twists... day as usual... had a great friend with me... went to the beach dragging the same friend who had to be somewhere else and ha a load o ice cream... sometimes i wonder what id do if all the ice cream factories close down! it would mean disaster for me!!!!:O

ot back home feelin miserable for growning old... hit the sack early!!! woke up to find... in the middle of the night.... to find my lil sis had ot this beautiful yummy dark choco cake waitin for me.... and was sooo touched:) didnt expect it bcoz it was somethin i had forotten abt...:)

slept till late cauht a hot movie:) the town... went out for dinner:) was surprised with a whole bunch of crackers and cake:) and a bunch o wishes in the middle o the nyt... like to be the last to wish me types:) was really sweet and after i got home i get another cake!!! total of three cakes this bday:)

yummm... pic o one is up here... the other two are in my phone and bein the gadget illiterate tht i am i guess itll take a while for me to put up the others...:)

At twety five... celebratin life:D CHEERS!!!

a bitter sweet day...

was fun... started off very tired and sleepy... went well... evening turned out wel...  then a coupla thins went down the drain... had to borrow a friends warmer to cry into... ofcourse the warmer had a strong broad shoulder supporting it, with a warmer heart beneath...:) headed to the onli place i alwaysd head to come rain or sunshine... the beach:D

love

love:D

again a few experiments... im guessing im getting worse with my cam....  the dark pic looked weird so tot id put it up any way... the others i dono just wanted to get weird lookin lights...

trial and error:)

had driven down to my alma matter:) and :( :P pretty much used up all the smileys i know in just this one line:) and it was beautiful, the drive i mean... the weather was just abt perfect... couldnt ask for more.... or less....

chill air... a light drizzle, open highway, green trees, occasional water bodies here and there... a cloudy sky line... only thing i didnt get to see was a rainbow... but i guess the trip itself looked like one to me now that im back:)

these were a coupla pics i tried my hand at.... i promise ill get better:D

**sigh**

Funny thing about this little heart of mine, all the ways that it can say things...
Longer than forever, till the end of time, no matter come what may
Look at me now, sitting all by myself, face another sleepless night all alone.

All I look forward to is lying here living this thought.

Listenin to the songs i like...'Leaving on a Jet Plane,' 'Blowin' in the Wind,' 'The Silly Games that People Play'...each of them carries your memory still, I can still see that look in your eyes.

That one that preceded your kisses and followed your sighs.

I can't escape thinking every day about you, can't escape wishing....

Every rain in the morning reminds me of you, every night when it's cold outside,
every time that I ache inside.

Sometimes I wish it was years ago, we were starting all over again.
Yet the way that I feel is much more than just remembering when.
I can't escape thinking every day about you, can't escape wishing, dear, you were still mine.
Can't escape thinking maybe I still love you, can't escape caring for you all of the time.

All of the time. All of the time.

R.I.P

a while back... i was a lost teen...

figuring out how my life would take me...

thinking abt where i would be... what i would be doing... thinking that my friends are my world... thinking tht a handful of people would be there for me for all eternity... in this childish fansy tht everything will stay the same as it is the only difference will be a few wrinkles on my skin... ok... so not really a few but a mighty load of them but thts it.... i was also in this fantasy land where mothers are always strong... and would always be there when u cry... when u laugh... and would never leave your side... ever...

i just woke up under the tree of enlightenment a coupla months back.... nothing would stay the same... everything is so transitory... friends, friendship, relationships, goals aspirations... the irony is that science has made it such tht these will always be transitory but the wrinkles need never come!!! with all the anti ageing, botox, etc etc...

all this didn't come to me at an instant of realisation!

i am watching my mom grow old.... dealing with the fact that those close to us will probably depart before we do, while dealing with the loss of someone who was dear to my heart, so much so tht i am reminded of him everytime i cross the bus stand, everytime i eat roti and dhal... everytime i smell old spice... everytime i see some man wearing a lot of beads ard his neck, everytime i  see an old man with an in tuck shirt try and cross a busy road on his own....

watched my friends grow out of friendships, watched people walk out of relationships..watched my dreams of setting the worls right transform itself into a whole different realm...

watched my sis grow up from a toddler whos carrying a stuffed toy twice her size to a smooth suave beautiful young career woman...

whats surprising is what made me realise all this was when i was watching a movie!! not any sober good brainstuff... but a no brainer...Bluffmaster!!! of all movies!! when bohman Irani asks the protagnist think and tell me the unforgettable moments in your life... and tot back...

all those moments... all of them were of my family, when mom made those yummy dosa's and when my sister held my hand just because she wanted to... the times when my dad would let me ride piggy back with him... the first pici clicked was of my sis as a kid with a crown in her head posing as old time models would... little knowing what the future held...

life's so fleeting.... so fleeting that memories come and memories go... that at times i stop to think which ones are memories and which is the real deal...

R.I.P kittu... i miss you.