Monday, February 27, 2017

Face reading. The truth.

I kept peeping into each bus looking to see if the seats were cushioned and if there was a push back.
You wouldnt believe the number of buses that dont have what we considered basic comforts if i told you!
I hit the jackpot. Third time lucky!
The guy who issued my ticket says no seats in the front go get comfortable at the rear of the bus so you can get your muscles massaged with all the bumps on the road and alight with a sore back. I look at him pleading with a smile trying to work the im a woman travelling alone scenario as much as i could and he obliged with a seat two rows behind his own.
Near a man who filled his seat quite well i must add. I then understood why he thought i may not be alright at the front of the bus.
Or so i thought.

I was settling in to drift into a land of healing my creaking joints after an uphill trek.
My  muscles sore.
When i got chatted up.
And it wasnt really a pick me up. But it was cherry topped with an im not sure if it was a pick up.
The conversation started with... oh u climbed the hill? And went on to how my face says i have gone through tough times last two years and how my parents are sick and how i am well intentioned but it comes and bites me in my arse...
I guess its generic. Everyone thinks theyve been having toughh times... so we lean forward and say hmm... people read that and go on...
These guys who claim to be psychic i say!
Anyway
And then comes the icing on the mudcake...
he says. I read the vedas everyday. So if u talk to me u will have positive vibrations from me and through the phone u will have tht positive effect... (what nonsense i think through it all) if he was a good face reader he would have read my disinterest by now u think? NO...!
He keeps at it and finally finishes saying u should come visit the place i stay at...theres this temple ill take u there...
That was my signal to fake sleep.

Makes me question who is really genuine and whos not in the whole wide world.

The 27th.

27 adds to a 9.
It is an odd number.
Or is it.
Yup im sure its an odd. 2,4, 6 is an even right?
A  few people remembered the evil in the odd number.

Wish more did.
Happy 2017!
Good february it has turned out to be **ironic smile**

Saturday, February 25, 2017

The hills and beyond

These hills have seen me through good sturdy decisions and horribly skewed ones...
A friend whos beyond the seas i always remember to take the climb with me...
Been getting pushed indefinitely,
The time is now.
I ask not what should be.
I ask not what the heart wants.
I climb watching the devout lighting camphor and smearing colors each step of the way...
I watch the deer friendly to take greens from hands of two legged doe eyed little ones...
I climb not expecting to see the destination...
I climb because he wants me to...
I climb because he called...
because i do before every step i take...  good or not...

Leaving my little one at home i climb the seven hills

The hills so pure
So far yet so near
The hills i climb.

Sunday, February 19, 2017

Addiction fix!

Finally!
Had lost all social media communication for a while and now simply it decided to materialise on a fine morning sunday at that!
Anxiety resolved!
Im not on facebook and whatever else kids use these days all the insta and tweets are not mine..
But whatsapp disappeared and i am a person who people have to leave a txt to reach me!
Whatsapp addiction established!
And surprise surprise! My blogger app reappeared too!
Yaay!

Now that i am at peace about being reachable i can start work on the long list of sunday chores!

Thursday, February 16, 2017

tiny chocolate. huge feel good

Ive been having this... craving...
chocolate cake...
like sinful bites of pure bliss...
i had the best chocolate cake at this placecalled Sandy's... and the one that i loved was named the tiny chocolate cake...
the first time i went to that outlet was when i was running past it the wafting aroma or deliciousness that can only come out of good baking drew me in with its enticing tendrils...
when i looked up their menu sheet itcaught my eye... named as tiny chocolatecake i assumed it to be just enough for a mouthful and thought it'd be packed with all kinds of chocolate heaven....

When i got what i asked the slice was enough for me to skip my lunch.. and it was seven kinds of pleasure...
my taste buds danced with joy and my heart did a little two step mary poppins steppity step...
that. That is what i was craving for...
i knew it was a large spot that couldnt be filled by just any piece of baked chocolate dough...
After trying to kill the craving for close to 72 long hours... walked into the only bakery that in my opinion baked decent cakes...

Asked the guy behind the counter which chocolate loaded cakw would he recommend... he was trying to be helpful when he offered me a choice of four different ratios ...

The conversation that followed..

Me. Hmm.. i have this chocolate craving...?
He. Ok ma'am
Me. I really want some yummy chocolate
he. **looking thoughtfully**
Me. **wondering if i sounded crazy**

He. All 3 would work ma'am
Me. Hm. Which would you pick. U know?
He. **face lights up** i would take this fudge coz it has the cherries so u wont get boted of the taste of chocolate like in the others ma'am
me. Why did u take so long to tell me this????
He. I was thinking back about when i had the same feeling to load myself on chocolate ma'am
(Pauses a while while packing 1kilo of my medicine)
He. I would also suggest you get yourself some bars of chocolate
(Gives me a consipatory grin)



I felt so much better knowing that i wasnt the only one who has this need to stuff my face without a care in the world with the best thing to do just that!

Off i went,
my cake and me to look for our friends mr.chocolate bars.


Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Its valentines day.
I thought everyday is special when you are in a relationship and it shouldnt be just one day that you should be celebrating your love... is it not?
Like
how do you appreciate your mother on a single day and go back to screaming at her and fighting with her the minute mothers day ends...

The whole place the last two days has gone through a transformation with red and white as the theme... like christmas...
its just too much red.
Its redness overload!
 Like i literally see red everytime i walk by shops decked up for this stupid valentines day....

You know you are old when...
you dont remember valentines day being such a big deal when you were in college... :p

I remember...
a friend of mine.. those days long long ago so long ago... when he went upto a girl that pretty much everyone in our frds group crushed on... he gathered his guts over a period of a week that lead up to valentines day to walk upto her when all of us were sitting at the beach... just to give her a note that said i love you....
sigh
those days...
when his best friend and i hated the girl in question...
ok hated is an exxageration...
we just didnt like her...
probably coz we didnt know what was so great about her that all the guys in our group were going ga ga over her and were vying for her attention...
so much so that we spoke on her terrace.. i loved her terrace... i remember having great conversations on that terrace with another friend.. the only one i knew will be there for life.. him and me talking about life wjat it means and the promises the future holds.. the times that both of us were exploring philosophy and discovering metallica together..... her here being his bestie and me... not the lady who was the object of his fancy...just her and me...
Decided to give the guy an ultimatum... if he chooses to date and in those days dating meant meeting each other away from the eyes of our group... if he chose to do that then the two of us would be lost to him...
at that point he chose the other woman.
The woman who got her nick name for wearing pants and telling everyone they werent called pants and they were called something fancy.. a trousser!!
Rflol... those days!
Trousers being a fancy word for us! Beat that!
Life used to be so simple!
Wonder how those days just flew by...

Whats funny is that somehow.. i knew... i knew tht the bestie had feelings for him...
eventually the bestie and the guy friend ended up together...
it was the perfect match...
they have a son... named  exactly what i would have named my son...

Am i rambling?
I think im rambling.
i definitely am rambling.

So the point being.
My memory of valentines day being the beach as a group laughing throwing sand on each other...  and handing the object of your fancy a note saying i like you with nervous shaky hands.... hoping that they would just smile at you...

Now?
Well now kids these days just seem to think its normal to go all out and bust their parents dough to take a girl out show them a good time and hey if not this one theres always another and theres always the next valentines...



Sigh...

Did i just call them kids?!!

I am officially old!

Sunday, February 12, 2017

laundry day

It sunday... u say finally!
I say jeez!
Sundays the day thats packed to the brim and overflows with work thats been pending all week for me.
Work that had to get done four days back which me being me just got pushed to later...
this sunday has started out a bit different tha  the sundays im used to...
i woke up at 5.
Pushed myself to sleep again... woke up at ten and decided to get started on the sunday chores...
and i had flashes...
i wished things had been different..
That a few people were never met...
i understood why all the exes ex girlfriends never want to speak or even enter the same room as him.
i finally understood that vileness that exuded was not just for me...
but its been four years!
Well its the fateful month of february...
u know how i get in feb...
i get mopy...
i mop ard in regret and self pity...
which in miraclulous march it disappears...

So it started with that...
then i realised i was thinking things unbecoming of me...
started working on getting decent food into the ever growling tummy....
and while waiting for the food to be ready for table did my weeks worth of laundry...

When again... it was a moment of thinking back...
i havent washed clothes in a machine for over four and a half years....
not that i miss the machine...
its just become a regular part of my week now...
soak... scrub.... rinse... wring.... dry....
repeat...
walk away with a sore back...
and if i end up wanting a lazy weekend... im screwed...
ill end up scrubbing a few a day... every.single. day.
so better one day one shot.
Like ripping the bandage with no anaesthesia.

No regrets. Except the time i waste thinking about the people who dont deserve my thoughts.

Sunday, February 5, 2017

The bearded wise old has become the bearded no more...
the wait tthat was meant as a week long break turns into a lunar cycle of deserted corridors..
as i move to another house for the next seven months i realise that living out of the suitcase that i thought was how much it would take... ended up being 20 trips of overloaded arms and cautious climbs...

Now i move again.

Yes. Its weird that i keep moving.
But whats worse is the fact that it takes me less than 20 minutes to heap all the stuff that is littered throughout the three rooms across the cupboards and the floor and be ready to leave behind where i rested for a year.

Thats all i carry.
Maybe physically.
But i guess in the end we dont bring anything into this worl as we enter a cry escapes our throat and a tear leaves our eye...
when we leave that tear would be dry and thr cry would be caught.

Six feet of bones and muscles become a handful of grey ash