Remember the time when you were serenaded with flowers, chocolates , the movies whenever a new one was out.
Why does it all go away.
What makes all those things we connected with seem unimportant?
When does it all change?
Why?
Feel old.
Dang.
No more thinking next few weeks.
Just one foot in front of the other.
Breathe.
What I don't understand in life is, all the times I see people happy. When I don't know them as a person I can be happy with them or for them, but the problem actually starts bobbing it's head is when I know the said people.
Invariably these are people I would know a long while.
Being me I would most definitely have lost touch with them over the years and would have let them make the extra effort in reconnecting.
All of us already know, I am bad at maintaining but better at making friendships.
The few that have stuck over time is more effort from that side to show it matters to them that I'm around in their life and once I feel like yes they care then is when I put in the effort too. But by then there's a possibility that it would be too late to salvage the relationship. There would be so many stories I would have missed.
There will be other people in the place I used to take.
There would be so many more things they would have handled without me around that they would question the effort they are taking to reach me and probably just dust their hands off saying you know what i got through so much without you being there for me I sure as hell don't need you now. I can do without you and the effort it takes therefore draining me.
Shut the door and they say sorry but you are out.
Deviating from the topic but let's get back shall we?
Where was I?
The meeting people after loosing touch and knowing what kind of people they are, when I see a few people like recently I met with a few from my school and med school phase and noticed a pattern I was making in my head to create a huge crocheted picture of life in my head.
The sucky people, the bullies, the serial dater, the serial cheater, the liar people who hurt others for no reason whatsoever ever end up with wonderful partners and kids and huge palatial houses and everything that the society has convinced us to believe are indicators of success.....
While, the genuinely nice people, people with a kind heart, kind eyes and have gentle souls end up in bad relationships, financial issues and no issues....
While speaking to a friend about this pattern I'm seeing I was told maybe my basic premise is wrong. While another says God knows if they are really happy. How do you measure their happiness.
While another said, maybe they got all, but how do you know what are the sacrifices they have to make to make things going for them.....
What she said did make sense.
Just because someone looks happy we wouldn't know the story behind it all. Maybe there are big sacrifices being made individually to make the whole picture work....
Just like each knot has a story of being made...
What they must have done, their slips, their experience while bullying others must have taught them something that makes them go the extra mile to be understanding... You never know I guess...
That's why they say, a teak tree falls first while the Elm stays standing when hit strong.
